But the real Christian is more complicated than that. When he’s talking to you off-camera, the answers to interview questions come pouring out of him, articulate and opinionated. He can talk a blue streak, and he’d be the first one to tell you that he can’t stand people that are full of shit.
“It’s one of my pet peeves. I hate people that lie and make shit up that’s so fucking ridiculous, that I’m supposed to buy it,” Christian said, describing his thoughts on how a lot of people get into the business to escape their former lives and then are dishonest about where they really come from.
“I was working with Jenny Hendrix one day, and she was like, ‘You know what? I was fucking working at MacDonald’s before I got in this business.’ That’s real, and that’s the kind of people — you need to see more people like that [in the business],” he said.
‘I’m not going to lie about the fact that I tried to do the straight and narrow. I have a college degree. I tried to be a schoolteacher, and I wasn’t very good at it. I’m a sex addict. I hated where I was living. I couldn’t take it anymore. I had to get the fuck out of Dodge, pardon my language, and so I moved to Vegas. Do I wish, many days, that I had stuck it out and married some girl and had two kids and a fucking front yard and a dog? Yeah, sure. But I couldn’t do it.”
That kind of straightforwardness is somewhat strange coming from a performer. But Christian is an unusual figure in the industry by any standards, and he shares his unique perspective on his new blog, ChristianSingsTheBlues.com , which he’s been updating almost daily since the beginning of the year.
One unusual thing about it: When Christian writes about his day-to-day life, he’s not that different from other 33-year old guys, except that he fucks for a living. He likes to go to dinner with friends. He spends hours a day in the gym finetuning his already exceptional physique (he’s currently training to compete in the Ironman Triathlon with a former girlfriend). He shops at Target with friends like Lexi Belle, he plays World of Warcraft and he goes to bed by 2 a.m., usually by himself.
And if he loses a scene because of another performer or gets treated badly by someone in the industry, he will blast them on his blog, which seems kind of dangerous in such a small industry. On some level, though, people are anxious to read what he has to say: According to Christian, he consistently receives more than 2,000 views a day.
On Feb. 8, an off day for Christian, he sat down and blogged about his personal background, his family and his life before porn. Despite being well educated and aside from being a self-admitted sex addict, Christian explained that his decision to get in the business was also economic.
“People ask, ‘Why did you get in this business, [when you have] a degree?’ And I just want to go, ‘I thought that was fucking obvious. I tried being a schoolteacher, and it didn’t work,’” he described, talking on his cellphone as he was cycling at the gym.
“I was in crippling debt,” Christian said. “When I graduated college, I was basketball coach for two years, and I was getting paid $500 a month for the first year and $10,000 a year for the second year. Then after that, I went back and took a job as a schoolteacher, where I got paid $24,000 a year, which breaks down to about $800 to $900 a month. Even when I got the best job teaching that I got, at Brazoswood [High School], I was making about $1,200 every two weeks, which now I make in two days. The debt was crippling. Being single and lonely in the middle of nowhere was horrendously bad. I just felt like I was wasting away. I was unhappy.”
So Christian has explained why he got in the business, but has yet to blog about exactly how he got in the business — though the story of his incarnation as gay porn star Maxx Diesel is well known. He is probably the only male performer to have been an exclusive contract model for a gay company, Falcon Studios in San Francisco, who then was able to successfully cross over to become a performer on the straight side of the industry.
In 2003, after a few years of being a bouncer at night clubs in Dallas and Las Vegas, and having sport sex with three or four women a day, he emailed legendary adult director Chi Chi LaRue to ask if he could get a job as a performer for Vivid.
‘When you’re someone who’s a sex addict, you jerk off to a lot of porn. And I love girl/girl porn. I don’t like watching dudes fuck. I don’t want to see another guy, because I get jealous or I think he’s no good,” Christian described. “I just want to see two hot chicks making out. So, Vivid’s ‘Where the Boys Aren’t’ — remember, when I was growing up, Janine and Chasey Lain, Dyanna Lauren, all those girls were gigantic in the business, and in every movie — I think Vivid did more girl/girl than boy/girl back then. And who directed all the girl/girl movies? Chi Chi.
“Before I got in the business, after I graduated college, I was playing basketball. Then I started doing triathlons, so I was in unbelievable shape. I was proud of that, so I sent Chi Chi pictures, and I said, ‘I’d love to be in Vivid movies, because I want to work with all these chicks.’ And that’s when Chi Chi said I’d have to live in L.A. for that. But [LaRue also said,] ‘I also direct for Falcon and they do gay porn — are you interested?’”
At first Christian said he wasn’t interested, but then he reconsidered. As Maxx Diesel, he appeared in several titles for Falcon, including “Taking Flight 1 & 2,” “Cross Country 1 & 2,” “Up All Night” and “Tommy’s Tale,” among others.
The fact that he did appear in gay adult films is something Christian has never tried to hide, though it has made him an easy target on industry message boards and for other detractors. He says he still loses a scene a week when a girl cancels after she’s found out that he used to do gay porn.
“People and their homophobia, which is a strange word to use, because I don’t consider myself — obviously I’m not gay,” Christian said. “I don’t even consider myself gay-for-pay, because I don’t like the way that phrase, like the connotation means that I hated every minute of it, and somehow I was able to just get hard.
“I had a good time doing Falcon. They were great to me. Good people, good times. They took care of me. They’re like the Vivid of gay porn. At the end of the day, I’m just not attracted to boys in real life. The taboo was great — I’m not really supposed to be doing this, it’s different, it’s a part of me I’ve never explored and that I’ve never done, but at the end of the day, I always like women and I only date women,” he explained.
The logic defies him; Christian assumes that most performers must realize — like in the game “Six Degrees of Kevin Bacon,” where you can trace every working actor in Hollywood to being associated, by six people or less, with the actor Kevin Bacon — that because he works quite frequently, most performers are “working” with him via association with others he’s performed with that week.
‘Ninety-nine percent of the time, it’s some dude telling [the girls] that they should have a problem with me,” Christian said. “Somebody in the background, a boyfriend or a friend, somebody in the business that gets to them after the first scene — so usually it’s after I’ve worked with them, or something like that.
“Not only that, I feel like the girls that I’ve never worked with before — you don’t want to work with me, that’s fine. You don’t know me, and I don’t know you. You could think that I’m some kind of scumbag, or that I’m gay and that I live with dudes. I don’t know what they think,” he explained. “But the ones that I get pissed about are the ones I’ve already worked with.
“Granted, I’m not a 10 out of 10, I’m not 10 inches, but I shower. I’m clean-cut. I’m good-looking enough. If I did a scene where I hurt some girl, or I slapped her, or I smelled bad or I was bleeding from my cock, then go ahead and put me on your ‘no’ list. Put me on the ‘no’ list because we don’t get along. But to put me on the ‘no’ list because you heard I did gay porn four years ago — are you serious?”
After talking to Christian, you realize that his blog may, in some ways, be a reaction to living under the kind of scrutiny that would make most people crazy. It’s almost as if he’s saying, “If you’re going to believe everything you hear about me, then let me be the one to tell you.”
“I guess I’m a very polarizing person. Either you like me or you really don’t; there’s not a lot of middle,” Christian said, resignedly. “I’m a pretty friendly guy, and that’s one of the things that I’ve always prided myself on. I’m a people guy. I like the other people in our business, and it hurts me when people don’t like me — that’s bad. That’s one of my character flaws. It’s hard for me to let that go, and that’s why I go off on people that won’t work with me, because I don’t like it when people don’t like me.”
